Friday, June 27, 2014

Blog Tour + Excerpt + Giveaway: Deserving Darkness and Ascending Darkness by Jessica Spoon

Title: Darkness Deserved
Series: Shattering the Darkness
Author: Jessica Spoon
Genre: Erotic Romance
Publish Date: April 27, 2014
Review Source: eARC



Harper Reagan has been through everything a woman could possibly go through. Losing her parents and entering foster care, only to be abused by her foster father. Running away at fifteen, she enters the world’s oldest profession to survive. And survive she did.
If you call abuse, counted as property and tortured to no end surviving then that was what she did…survived. Her life was spared, but at what cost. Long ago Harper had died. Today, due to those decisions she made, she is left existing with no choice to do anything else. Staring the devil in the face daily for as long as she did, left its mark and pain behind for her to live with forever.
The pain of that survival scars her deeper than any physical wound she's ever received.
Harper is finally living a better life and has a great business, friends, and a home finally her own. She will do anything to keep her past hidden, including jeopardizing her only chance at love and a truly good man.
Breccan Caldwell is everything Harper doesn't deserve. He's gorgeous, successful, caring and a true gentleman.

Can Breccan show Harper who she truly is? Or will he be pushed out by the darkness she allows herself to be consumed with?

Friday night at the bar was busy. Every table was full all night and the bar was packed as well. I couldn’t have been happier. It was ten o’clock as I was making my rounds through the crowd checking tables and helping Emma, Beth and Mya, my waitresses, out. 
I had just finished setting down a round of shots at a table full of sorority girls and turned around to go back to the bar, when I felt a tingle start at the top of my head and move toward my groin. When it settled and my clit began to throb I just knew. I knew it was my Adonis.
Here at last.
 I was hoping I could just go through life without this temptation. It’s okay Harper. You wore your big girl panties tonight so quit being such a fucktwat and grow a pair. I make my way to the bar as if I notice nothing and set the tray down for Mark and Rory, my bartenders tonight.
I head towards the end of the bar to take care of some orders I need to make, when I feel his presence beating against me from behind. It’s like he already owns my body. My skin begins to tingle, my heartbeat speeds up, and my breathing becomes shallow as I try to control it. I can feel the vein in my neck throbbing relentlessly. On the outside I know I appear composed and nonchalant, but inside- inside- I feel ready to burst. 
I just want Adonis to grab me, throw me on the bar and fill me as I know only he can at this moment. He brings both arms around me so that his hands are resting on the bar and he has me trapped between it and himself. He leans in and I can feel his breath wash over my exposed neck. I inhale his scent: soap, Armani and Adonis. God, I want him to bend me over. A million different scenarios run through my mind of how to close down the bar so I can please this man.
 And that’s when I stop and ice runs through my veins. I spent four years pleasing men. I was not going down that path again.

Meeting Harper Reagan in the beginning of this book was heart wrenching to say the least.  To be put through everything that she was, was just laying it all out right from the start.  To say the least to be the person that she became was more that what most people can survive and over come.

Harper has been dealt a crap hand as a small child, then had her world shifted and turned even worse upside down as a teen all for trying to better herself.  To have endured the pain, suffering, and emotional blows that she did at such an early age is unbelievable.  He saving grace and "Angel" Nikko helped to pull her away from the so called gates of hell, and helped her to rise above the damages that has happened to her.  Harper has her home and bar and loves what she does with her whole entire being.  But, the worst part for her is the constant state of fear that she continues to live in.

One day, when she does not expect it, the man of her future enters into her bar.  He is so taken by her that he vows to himself to make it his goal to find out who the mysterious woman refusing to give him her name is.  As day after day goes by and the more he tries to approach her the more she tries to escape him.  Harper does not know who the incredible sexy man that entered into her bar one day actually was, but eventually was informed by her best friends Avery and Brynn that he is none other than Breccan Caldwell, the rich and famous most eligible bachelor in town.  This being what it is makes Harper afraid of him even more due to her past.  

This book took me on an emotional roller coaster.  Did I enjoy most definitely. The story was well written and keeps you right on track with Harper and Breccan's budding relationship.  I loved the snappy remarks that Harper comes up with, as well as the banter between her and her friends.  I found myself wanting her to be able to deal and come to terms with her demons so that she could allow herself to try and find happiness.  The patience of Breccan is amazing and you can just feel the emotions that he has for Harper even though he really doesn't know much about her, because she keeps everything bottled up inside.  My one complaint is that if you start reading this book make sure that you have book to read to start right after because it will end abruptly leaving you wanting more.... now with that being said... follow me into Book 2 Ascending Darkness.

Title: Ascending Darkness
Series: Shattering the Darkness
Author: Jessica Spoon
Genre: Erotic Romance
Publish Date: June 22, 2014
Review Source: eARC


The repercussions of Harper’s past meeting her present have left her breathless and lost. She continues to fight an internal war with herself. Can she let the love Breccan has offered into her life? Or was she right to push him away for his own good?
As Harper struggles with this internal battle, will her past find her and tear down everything she has built?
Will Harper ever find her happily ever after?

Read the conclusion of the Shattering the Darkness Series.

It’s been years since I lived and breathed this way. Years since I had to wonder what would happen next. I’ve been lucky; living the good life and having whatever I wanted. I suppose I couldn’t really have it all; too greedy. It was never about money, though…. 
It was about being out of this life, having something more.
I don’t know if Nikko and Breccan know yet what has happened, or if they can even do anything about it. I imagine they will try and I hope they succeed, but how in the hell are they even going to find me? I don’t even know where I am or how I got here. How can two people that weren’t there do anything about it?
I look around the mostly dark room. The walls are a grayish color which looks to be from stains to the once white walls. The carpet is dark, almost a greenish color. There is a small bed in the corner with a table and a lamp that hardly sheds any light in this room. It smells musty in here, like a cemented basement. 
Maybe it is a basement.
I was unconscious when they took me and woke up in this room.  I sigh and sit up on the bed so that I am facing the door. My hands are still tied with nylon rope and my wrists are raw, so it hurts to move them too much.
The door starts to open and I watch.
He walks in with the same grimy smile he always had. 
I hate you!
He walks closer to the bed, looks down 
at me and says, “Hey, babe. You’ve been busy. Looks like it’s time to pay your dues. Pants off. Now.”

So we pick up right where we leave off in Deserving Darkness and go straight into Ascending Darkness.  We left off with Harper being in fear of getting involved with Breccan due to her past and what she had to do to in order to survive, the fear of being found because of her past, and that she basically does not feel deserving of finding love.

Breccan is trying to get Harper to understand that she in fact does deserve to allow herself to love, even though she will not let the walls down and allow him in to actually get to know her completely.  He has gotten approval from Nikko to be patient with Harper.  

This book actually takes us further into who Harper is, and why she is the way that she is.  This story takes up deep into Harper's past and allows us to see all that she had to deal with and was subjected to and why she feels that she deserves the darkness that she lives in.  We also see that when Harper loves, she loves hard, and that shows with her friends, her bar, employees, and Bane her dog.  She is confronted with her love for Breccan and the fact that he is not willing to let her chase him off, even if she feels as if she in not deserving of love.

I will say that this is not a book or set of books for the faint of heart.  Some of the situations that Harper was subjected to are very descriptive and will have you feeling the sheer pain that she was dealt.  On the flip side we get to see why Harper has the fears that she has, how Breccan reaches out to her, and how much support she actually has without even realizing it.   I am glad that I had both books to read back to back so that I could get the whole feel of the story.  I also could feel the emotions that Harper dealt with throughout the books.  My only complaint other than the cliffhanger in book one is that book two seemed to have a bit to much sex for me.  Don't get me wrong, I love a hot and steamy story, but at points I found myself skipping through some of the sexual parts of the book.  With this being said, I do not feel that you will be disappointed once you finish reading them, and yes if you are one who does not like a book with strong emotional conflict and hitting on some serious topics, then no these are not for you, but if you don't mind facing demons for say and taking a walk with a person without a soul for say, than this book with give you enjoyment.  

Jessica grew up in a small town in Southern Iowa. She went to nursing school and became a nurse only to realize her passion was in writing and reading. She loves to spend her time with friends and is very close with her family. It took her a long time to realize she even had a joy of reading. Once having declared there was no point when the books always became movies. At twenty four she discovered how wrong she was and became obsessed with reading and made up for lost time by doing it nonstop. She began writing when dozens of ideas kept flowing through her mind that she knew she had to get out.


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